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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

An extract from my Journal


I don't like the way i act toward Peaches.I constantly experience her as a very attractive woman,and yet the whole time i act like a polite eunuch.When i feel my maleness sexually,i want to consciously decide whether to act it out.When being an asexual nice-guy is a pretense,it is also self-betrayal.A decision can come from strength or self doubt.I see now that i want every act to be a self-affirming choice.

My feelings may demand action but they do not require it,I am free to choose what my body represents.To act out does not "get it out".In fact,acting it out often re-enforces the emotion and imprints it more deeply on my mind.One thing only is predictable about emotions:They will change.I don't have to "Honor" every passing feeling as if an opportunity for self-fulfillment were actually slipping from my grasp.

16 comments:

Jaycee said...

I like this.

Robyn said...

@Jaycee Thank you

Be silent said...

Nice one

Robyn said...

@Silence Am glad you liked it.

Regina said...

Thanks for your visit (Now I have your blog link again Yayy!)
As always this is very well written and truly felt. If folk would stop physically acting on every emotion they feel their lives would be a little less harsh (for lack of a better word!). Emotionalism and Wisdom are polar opposites!
Have a great day!

Funms-the rebirth said...

this is really good....:)

how have u been?

Funms-the rebirth said...

this is really good....:)

how have u been?

Black INK said...

Deep Robyn! Very deep!.

Robyn said...

@Funms-the rebirth am ok luv.You locked out of "the journey blog" hope i am not mixing up your blogs

Robyn said...

@Black INK am really glad

therisingpage said...

This is good!

kennykats26 said...

me i love you, me i miss you

lulu said...

dude, i was the one that said i love and miss you.... ouch

Robyn said...

@lulu I blushed twice on seeing this.I know love when i feel it.I love you too gal and Thank you

@therisingpage thank you very much

Eaton Bennett said...

About emotions, you can never guarantee they will be the same from one moment to the next. But without them we are emotional eunuchs. I believe you don't have to act on every emotion to be done with it. It takes guts to stand firm and be who you are. Brave of you to share your most personal self.

Anonymous said...

:))

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