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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

An extract from my Journal


I don't like the way i act toward Peaches.I constantly experience her as a very attractive woman,and yet the whole time i act like a polite eunuch.When i feel my maleness sexually,i want to consciously decide whether to act it out.When being an asexual nice-guy is a pretense,it is also self-betrayal.A decision can come from strength or self doubt.I see now that i want every act to be a self-affirming choice.

My feelings may demand action but they do not require it,I am free to choose what my body represents.To act out does not "get it out".In fact,acting it out often re-enforces the emotion and imprints it more deeply on my mind.One thing only is predictable about emotions:They will change.I don't have to "Honor" every passing feeling as if an opportunity for self-fulfillment were actually slipping from my grasp.

Monday, March 14, 2011

A Note to My Self

Anxiety,fear,panic is running away mentally,not physically.There is something over there in the corner of my mind,some thought,some image,that i don't want to look at.Fear is based on the belief that i am safer not seeing,like a child closing its eyes as the ball comes towards it.Awareness is the 1st step to freeing the mind.I must not only hear the fear out but question it closely as to the answer it is suggesting.Just as with Nightmare,most fears will fall by the weight of their own nonsense-Once they are bluntly seen

Now,Being my self includes taking risks with myself,putting a side fear,taking risks on new behavior,trying new ways of thinking and being,so i can come to know how it feels to walk hand in hand with my self.

#Notes to Myself


Lately I've been struggling,Spiritually and emotionally.I have been thinking of my self and what path i should take or what path i am currently on.A struggle between Poetry and photography ,Between God and Me,But mostly between taking a leap of faith and Fear.

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